Hi everyone!!! If you already don't know, I am participating in the 15 Day Positive Affirmation Challenge hosted by Celestine Chua; writer and founder of Personal Excellence. Want to know more? Click the cool black button below!! Before I begin today's challenge I really want to note that this is kind of difficult for me. I've always said I loved myself, but I'm not sure if I really meant it. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a self-hater I just feel at times when I say "self I love you" it's more so words without meaning. I have struggled with self-love and self-esteem issues at different points in my life, especially when I was younger. I always thought I was less deserving of what I was blessed with, whether it was an opportunity to be in a play, attend an international program, or have the ability to do half-marathons; the list goes on. Even now, God has opened up so many doors for me and the only thing I can conjure up is "why?"
"Identify any self-hating thoughts you may have"
Identify the reason behind this self-hate. I'm not really sure where my "self-hating" thoughts stemmed from, I think it's just a habit I became accustomed to throughout my life. There have been times where I criticized myself so harshly, I began to believe my own words. I think trying to fill that void of validation from others, in addition to wanting that approval; and not getting it played it's part. Truth is, I was seeking validation from people without credentials and places without accreditation. Sadly, my falsified truths became the norm of my life. Change your thoughts
Identify your action step(s) to love yourself today.
HUG YOURSELF."Like, REALLY hug yourself LIKE YOU’VE NEVER HUGGED ANYONE BEFORE. Feel every part of your body, your skin, and your soul, in your arms. Let go of your personal barriers, self-hate, and self-criticism — LET THEM GO, LET ALL OF THEM GO. Feel the warmth and LOVE emanating from your body back into your arms and body. Close your eyes, pause for about 15 seconds, and just soak in this moment of self-love." Today's Affirmation: "I love myself unconditionally." Reflection: This post was extremely meaningful, thank you Celestine. For the first time in my life I felt love for myself, real genuine love.The kind of love you feel for your family, friend, or significant other, the kind of love that is protective, defensive, on-the-look-out for those trying to hurt the ones closes to you kind of love, is the love I felt for myself. Boy!!!! Does it feel good, amazing, breath-taking, rejuvenating, relieving, stress-free, unburdened, compassionate, just pure AHH!!! This is what love should feel like and this is the love I want and I deserve. To be honest, while I was writing this post I began to feel conceded and self-absorbed because I was talking about myself. But, I've realized that saying I'm beautiful, smart, and talented is not being full of myself, but stating facts. It is true that I am all that I say I am because I am made in God's image. I'm going to tell a quick story then I'm going to hit the hay. One day it was asked of me to discuss all the work I've done in my organization this year, and boy did I do a lot. I walked to the podium said what I had to say and sat back down. It took me less than 3 min. to say what I did and not because I summed up the year in a few words. But, because I was uncomfortable talking about myself, I felt I was bragging or boasting. What's funny about the whole situation was when I told one of my former professors what happened. This is what she told me, she said " humble people don't have to act humble...I'm not saying you're not a humble person what I am saying is that when someone asks you what you have done, say what you've done because it is true." She was right, it was true, but I don't think at that time I had enough self-love to appreciate the good things I've done. Even, when people give me compliments or give me some form of "praise" I down play it, because to be honest it was difficult to believe. Good thing that's changing, it's about time. Letter to myself: Dear Self, I love you and I adore you. I promise to always cherish you with all of my heart and soul. You deserve the world and I'm going to give it to you on a silver platter. You're the love of my life forever and always. And I pray that one day someone will love you as much, maybe even more than I do. I love you sweetheart. Love always, Kelli
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